For Great Justice... and Cookies: The Official HJU Youmacon '08 Thread

Well my earlier post was what what good about Youma for me...

and now for the bad part... >_>

[hide]Early on Saturday morning at the con I had my staff badge taken away, and here's why. OK so, during the whole Friday rush for volunteers my friend Chris filled in for me because he saw I was getting a little overwhelmed with all the volunteers:thumbs:. So while he did that, I helped get the Faygo into the staff suit and con suit. In the process of helping I had yelled at my friends Rob and Justin, which I had apologized for a little later on. Then later on Friday night I met up with my friends Trever, Ed, and Rob (same Rob). We were talking and having a good time when some how Rob started talking about a video he had of me getting drunk off my ass doing some things that I believe to be morally repulsive. I was drunk and not in the right state of mind to realize what I was doing at the time, and then he says jokingly that if I were to ever get married that he might just show that video to the girl (whoever it will be in the future) I get married to, that specific video on the night of my wedding.... I told him I would bust his teeth out if he ever did that. And I meant it, I honestly wouldn't put it past him to actually do that. Then we all headed up to Trever's room on the 8th floor and I saw some plastic forks on the ledge of the walkway.... I grabbed them (about 5 or 6) and threw them down to the lobby from the 8th floor. It was only after Rob had explained to me the seriousness of it that, that I realized what I had done and I felt really guilty about that. Then later on that night I got drunk with some people in the lobby of the hotel, after all is said and done I find out that one of them was a minor and since I couldn't stop it at that point I just left. The next morning, I get to volunteer ops for my shift only to be told that because of my actions I will be taken off of staff. I gladly gave them my badge because I felt so bad about doing that and making a complete ass of myself because of it. I spent the rest of the con walking around trying to find something to do. (cut to Keith getting KO'ed by Mark Musashi)

So I try to hang with her again on Saturday so I can get to know her better, she seemed a little more silent this time around though. Oh did I mention that some of her other friends bailed on her after she worked her ass getting costumes done for them>8(. One of them even said that she "wasn't putting enough effort into the costumes"..... I wanted to find the one that said that and give them a piece of my mind:sparta!:. What they did put her in tears, and I felt useless just standing there cause I didn't know what to do to try and cheer her up. I just wanted to see her smile, truly smile... if only for a second. But I don't think that happened. I tried so hard to think of something to do to cheer her up but not matter how hard I tried I couldn't think of anything, Until she started mentioning the rave that was happening later on in the night. So fast forward to that night when the rave started. Everybody gets in there and starts dancing and what do I do.... I stand there like a lump on a log and look around for a little bit then leave like a a chicken **** because I don't know how to dance... I only know for a fact is that I know how to head bang. So I left for a while:confused2 thinking of what a pussy she must think of me and trying to think of something to do.... while I was thinking I ran into Keith while he was filming the fight scene with Mark Musashi (insert Musashi-blade KO-fist here) As that was going on, I thought if I got hyper like I normally was (which also surprised me that she was as hyper as I normally am..... I have never known anyone who got as hyper as me before, I was psyched) so I went to volunteer ops (I could still get in there, I was being shown at least some pity.... :rolleyes2:yay) and I downed two 16oz cans of RipIt Energy Fuel just to have the courage to go into that rave and start dancing with her.... It worked, I was finally hyper enough to go to the rave and dance unafraid:dance:. So I'm dancing near her at least, having just an all around good time. After a while ether she got pulled aside by one of her friends or she pulled aside one of her friends I couldn't tell.. ether way her friend looked distressed and completely out of it. I saw them go somewhere and I assumed that they went somewhere quieter to talk, as friends should do. As that was going on I noticed that the people I was dancing with had gone as well, so I walked around the rave to try and find someone else to dance with. As I was walking around the room I saw her and her friend talking again:eyebrow:. I pretended not to see them, as best I could anyway, and then I decided to look back at her one last time and then I'd be on my way. I'd leave her to talk about whatever her and her friend needed to talk about and when I saw her again I would go up and start trying to hang out with her again:coolshades:. But when I looked back, she was leaving the rave with her friend... and they both looked really worried. So I thought that I would just see her later on in the night after the rave. A lot of time passed after the rave and there was still no sign of her, I thought "Well hey, they probably had a lot to talk about":disappoin. So I go an do my own thing again for a couple more hours.. it was about 3 or 4 am when I found her friends she had been staying with at the con. I asked them casually where she might be.................. they didn't know, they had not seen her since before the rave... now I was getting a little worried, not even her friend that she came to the con with knew where she was. So I go around and I find some other people she knew.. they didn't know ether. I kept finding the people she knew, but they didn't know where she was:sly:. So I looked all over the hotel for her cause I was worried and I mean I look every were. I walked all over and across every floor of the hotel.. end to end, top to bottom. I could not find her. Ether she was a ninja and really did not want to be found, or something was wrong. There ARE people that go to conventions just to.... well do bad things to others at the con, and I mean really bad things. So I told myself that she just didn't want to be found.. for now. I went to my room and slept.

FYI the reason I got so worried about her is cause she told me in a serious conversation about certain things that she thought of me as a friend, and that she didn't want to lose me as a friend. Once I know for a fact that someone considers me a friend I start doing everything in my power to become better friends with them:thumbs:. I take extra special care to do everything I can think of to get them to keep liking me. I hold my friends in high respect, and I honor them as best I can. ^_^

I went to bed around 4 or 5 am and woke up around 7 am. I went around for a while, until about I think 11:30am or noon and I happen to run into one of her BEST friends near the dealers room. I asked her if she knew anything and she said she hadn't seen her ether.... :O_O:OK when your BEST friend has no idea where where you are, at a convention where you know only the people you came with, something is wrong. So I walked around on the first and second floors hoping to run into her at some point. I couldn't stop thinking about how she looked when her friends bailed on her (this was her --->:bawling, I just couldn't get that image out of my mind..... When before I knew it all my stuff was put in the car to go home. Me and my friends went to artist's ally one last time to get a look around and see what they might want. I had no money, but I had nothing to do. I stopped looking, she didn't want me to find her... otherwise I would have found her by now. Then just before we are about to leave, I just bump into her..... after all my searching, after I give up (which is something that doesn't happen very often) I just.... bump into her:confused2.

I tried talking to her, trying to make it seem that I wasn't all that worried:sweat:... you know.. that I might think that she was alright the entire time.... yeah anyway...
I asked very calmly where she had gone, that you know she kind of disappeared for a minute there.... I even laughed a little bit.......... yeah even though I was depressed as hell, and I wanted to hug her as hard as I could.... I laughed.. I guess that was the wrong thing to do or something because she looked more disheveled and depressed then I have ever seen anybody in my life O.O She even put on one of those fake smiles you use when you don't want someone to worry. So I didn't show I was worried.... I tried to at least.. as hard as it was, I tried to make it look like I wasn't screaming in my head:nooo: "WHERE WERE YOU?!?! NOT EVEN YOUR BEST FRIEND KNEW!!" so she wouldn't feel so bad. It was only a few words, but during the conversation it looked like she didn't want to be near me. Like I had done something wrong to her:disappoin... I don't know what I did to make her look at me like that but it cut me deep.... really deep... she left and said "I'll see you around, bye." It felt like she was saying sayonara (meaning good-bye FOREVER in Japanese)

SO yeah... that was my Youmacon this year.... All in all it was pretty good.


<_< Still thinking about her though....[/hide]

That sounds like one hell of a story man, sorry for the loss of your badge, and the worries of the girl. :disappoin

You know listening to ChumbaWamba's song Tubthumper reminded me of my philosophy.