KamenRiderRyuki said:
playing lots of emo music over and over. Thoughts of suicide even consumed me.
I would kill myself too if I was listening to that crap.
All jokes aside, Dude I think you need to get ur **** together and realise that broads ain't the center of the entire world. Crushing makes you weak, sure it's fun and feels great but when it hurts you in the end like you are telling us then it really isn't worth it man.
You need to be with someone who is going to love you back, it works both ways not 1 way. I know most of this is easier said than done but it's something that I've been able to work on (not perfect of course) throughout my life too. I've had about 4 girlfriends since I was 18 and the longest relationship was 3 1/2 years and man, by the time it ended I felt like I could breath again because it's was turning to a 1 way love street on my part and I started seeing it so I decided to cut it off and I've felt like a King ever since.
Straight up man, When it comes to girls you need to be able to keep ur cool because if you don't they can crush you. If the girl clearly doesn't like you back then leave it alone, stop wasting time. Ur better off beating off thinking about her. As long as you don't send stupid letters to her like that Deulist Stryfe guy.
Now, she clearly gave you the "answer" to everything with the Phone situation and if the guy looked pissed too then they are clearly dating. So just back off. Try to keep her in the back of ur mind and I'm positive sometime in ur life you will meet someone that completes you and loves you back, a person who askes you with a smile if you can hold her phone.
You've finished High School and that chapter is done in ur life. If you are going to College then that opens an entire new door with a BIGGER room of p00n for you to shoot for and have fun with. Now, if this repeats itself just try ur best to go back to the drawing boards, From my experience love usually falls in ur lap when you least expect or least want it. So maybe it's cool if you just stick to beating off, keep urself cool, and not worry too much about the girlies. I know that last part is fucking hard as hell but it does help if you try.
Also man, this Suicide **** is not cool. Taking ur life for some pussy is lame and you gotta realise this. You are just starting ur life out now and there is so much more **** for you to experience and looking at the bad **** in urself and thinking of killing urself is the pussy way out of things. How the **** can you watch Toku if ur dead?.
Another thing I find that really helps is keeping ur mind off **** like getting a full time or part time job in which you may find a new love interest at. I mean c'mon how many of us haven't had a crush on a co-worker? Besides Bolt who is the waitress at a Strip club. Plus you'd be making money and you can buy ur own ****, creates a good independance and makes you feel good about urself too.
You have ur health and Family, there is nothing more important than that and nothing is worth killing urself over especially not for some pussy. The only pussy worth killing for is the Pussy who'd kill itself for you.